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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!
« on: February 27, 2011, 02:07:55 AM »
I read the site a lot actually. I just don't post very much. An update, for the curious:

- No longer homeless. I came to a friend's house to crash for the night, and his mom is letting me use the spare room they were gonna use for his sister's art studio until I can afford a place.

- Got a new job. I start on Monday. Host at P.F. Chang's, 40 hours a week, $10.50/hr, and I don't have to handle food.

- Convention's over and done with, it actually went better then expected. I got time to relax and enjoy myself during it, and was generally able to decompress and be a fun person. Everything outside the walls of the hotel ceased to exist for a few days.

- Taxes, and some mysterious money I don't know the origins of, came in. I've had spare money for a week. I bought some new clothes since most of mine are worn out, and it actually feels nice.

- I've cleared some things up with some friends, been spending a pretty good bit of time out and doing things. Preoccupying myself makes dealing with shit a lot easier.

- I've mostly been sleeping pretty well. I wake up and actually feel rested, and even if I'm a bit tired it doesn't take me more then a couple of minutes to get up and start doing things.

Sorry for the huge wall-of-depression. It just happens sometimes. It's hard to stay positive when you keep getting kicked while you're down.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: February 10, 2011, 01:58:21 AM »
Never stick your dick in crazy.

I disagree with this.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: January 25, 2011, 10:59:32 PM »
Already paid for this semester of college, I'd like to see it through. Don't think I haven't considered it, though.

I'm actively looking for other jobs. My school schedule isn't that awful, Mon-Wed-Fri from approx. 9 until 1, two online classes I can do whenever. If I'm not at a friend's house or work I'll probably spend time on campus, since they have free wireless and, you know, heat. But I need either a full-time or two part-times to afford half of a two-bedroom. If I luck into a good full-time I know where a nice, cheap one-bedroom is, but that's a big if.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: January 25, 2011, 10:46:12 PM »
About half a tank.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: January 25, 2011, 10:31:16 PM »
That's a real goddamn bummer. At least you could vent about it here.

A short summary, then.

My life at home was horrible. Mom is an abusive alcoholic, dad is gone most of the time and refuses to see problems beyond me being disrespectful. Found a girl, threw myself into it wholeheartedly as a distraction to my home life. Thought I had a relationship, turns out I didn't, got a huge run-around and drove myself crazy over it at the time. Became extraordinarily sick, and the doctors couldn't figure out why. Became extremely depressed. Stopped sleeping, stopped eating, convinced myself I was going to die. Had a breakdown. Bottomed out. Contemplated suicide.

Left my work because the assistant manager was threatening me and I was continually getting fucked over, plus I wasn't making shit. New job changed my hire date so I couldn't get insurance, put me at a store an hour away, and lots of other things, so I quit. Had my college lie to me several times about payment things, almost got screwed out of it. Teacher's mistake caused me to fail an easy class so I'm on academic probation. Need to transfer to a real college in a couple of semesters, but money problems mean I'll have to take out a student loan and be in debt for years.

Moved in with a friend. He's useless and tried to get me kicked out. Get a call from my old job, a good friend died and now they have a position open. I have the position but I'm going to have to leave it because it won't pay enough and the at-work abuse will start again. Can't afford to drive from where I live now and I don't want to be here anyway, but I can't deal with the psychological abuse of living with my parents. So starting on Friday, I'm living out of my car and couch-surfing when I can, until I can find a full-time or a second part-time that will work around my schedule as a full-time student. The convention I volunteer for and am already committed to this year is being far too demanding.

I have $12 in my wallet. I have $5 in my bank account. I have a $20/month gym payment that I can't cancel without paying a $60 fee. I have two weeks to figure out how to get another $15 in there. I've sold hundreds of dollars of stuff online to afford food and gas. My trunk lock is drilled out, I need an oil change and a tune-up, my check engine comes on every time I start my car for 15-20 minutes, and I'm praying to nothing in particular that my car doesn't die. My best friend just got back together with her ex who is absolutely horrible for her and she keeps around solely because she enjoys the abuse.

There are days when it's all I can do to pull myself out of bed. I'm on the verge of losing it regularly. I feel sick frequently. I'm on edge all of the time. Sometimes I stress so much I hallucinate.

I don't generally care to vent. I just lie to myself and pretend it doesn't exist.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: January 25, 2011, 09:04:09 PM »
College, work, temporary psuedo-homelessness, family issues, crushing depression, eating disorder, mysterious illness, not-actually-relationship, money problems, a friend dying. Kinda tough to muster up the give-a-damn to talk when life keeps kicking you when you're down. My bad.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: January 24, 2011, 05:17:39 PM »
I'm always around. I'm on Skype all the time, and I swing past the forums at LEAST once a day. I just don't talk much. Been pretty busy, sort of. A looooooooooooooooot of things have changed.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: January 24, 2011, 02:18:05 PM »

Introductions / Re: Shall we try this again?
« on: October 04, 2010, 03:24:06 PM »
Pfft, Pittsburgh ain't got nothin' on Baltimore.  I learned how to drive stick reaaaaaal quick when I went there.


Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: September 07, 2010, 06:43:05 PM »
Who has a new job interview Friday? Is it me? I think it is.

Random Chat / Re: I want nudes.
« on: August 31, 2010, 02:03:19 PM »
Should be, yeah. 443-854-6801.

Random Chat / Re: I want nudes.
« on: August 30, 2010, 10:57:47 PM »

I am less terrible then normal. Two haircuts, a straightening, and getting other people to dress me since I'm incapable of making myself not look bad later, it's passable.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: August 30, 2010, 10:46:41 PM »
stepping manias

Here is a thing.

Random Chat / Re: THE MOST LAMEST THREAD OF 2010
« on: May 16, 2010, 03:40:14 PM »


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