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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: August 19, 2014, 04:35:19 PM »

When I drink (which is pretty rare) I usually drink a bit slowly (shots being the main exception) and, more importantly, spread them out a bit. Much like when you eat, you don't feel the effects right away, so you could end up overdoing it and not even realizing if it you're too quick.

Yeah, I pretty much do that. However, if I say want shots...the night will end poorly because the more I have in me, the more I want. I think I'll stick with large mixed drinks, SAILOR JERRY I NEED U BABE!

We had CenturyLink DSL for the past year.. paid for 40Mbps, barely got 12-20Mbps any given day. Shitty Zyxel modem/router's Wireless never worked properly and they were hardasses about sending us a new one for free/charging for a technician to come out there.

I would kill for 12mbps a few months ago, but if you was paying for 40, and didn't get half that, yeah, fuck that shit. Right now I pay for 60, and it regularly clocks at ~62. I am more than satisfied right now. Downloaded Fallout: New Vegas on a whim the other day, normally would take my old internet ~12 hours to download that...downloaded in 14 minutes.


AND FOR VLADS TRANSNESS, gonna schedule another doc appointment, I think I feel better about trying this stuff out now(5 solid months of questioning, investigating, talking to trans folk, and therapy). Soon as I get a date, I will have new motivation to actually get fit, because losing testosterone is gonna make weight loss harder. Thankfully I don't have THAT much I want to lose, ~20-25lbs. May take a few months to get my stuff though.

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: August 12, 2014, 03:30:31 AM »

Just try not to overdo it. Hangovers suck. :s

It has been a trial and error process, but I think I know how much I should consume. First time ever drinking...several weeks ago was like 530ml of 80 proof rum out of the bottle...

LESSON LEARNED, don't do that.

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: August 06, 2014, 06:04:44 PM »

Well i got my new ISP...it seems pretty fast. Downloading stuff off steam at like 7.7megabytes per second...it's speed that I am TOTALLY not used to. Going from a bicycle to a rocket ship fast or something.

Funny enough, I haven't even really been playing any games, just the occasional ultra street fighter 4. Not much a drive to delve into anything else at the moment.

Mainly lifting my life long ban on alcohol and consuming those beverages while I indulge in tranny nonsense on the internet. 2014 is a funny year.

Ohh one last thing, Dungeons and Dragons 5th edition players handbook is out soon, totally picking it up with the intent of playing again in the future.

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: July 09, 2014, 01:53:27 AM »

I think the last thing I got was Balders Gate 2 Enhanced Edition. Anyway soon as I get my new ISP and upgrade my internet from 2mbps to 60mbps, I will see about downloading Space Engineers a shot.

I got bored of Minecraft fast, but I love space, so this should make the game more interesting to me.

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: June 25, 2014, 02:52:50 PM »

I really didn't get much so far. State of Decay and Kingdoms of Amalur.

*edit*
and space engineers

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Gaming / Re: watcha playin'

« on: June 16, 2014, 02:15:12 AM »

I actually hate that hero because I think it is lazy on Blizzards part. I couldn't figure out why they would take a normal fuckin warcraft enemy and make it a hero over say...I don't know one of the MANY OTHER COOL CHARACTERS BLIZZARD HAS, Deckard Cain, or Alexei Stukov, or Duriel, or SOMETHING.

But I talked to a friend of mine who plays moba games and apparently that character is an analogue to a character called puck? or something like that, so color me unsurprised they would try and rip off some popular characters from dota.

I just think Blizzard has too many awesome characters to waste a hero slot on a random enemy.

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Gaming / Re: watcha playin'

« on: June 15, 2014, 12:12:12 AM »

Look at it this way. Hots matches are ~20 minutes long, even if you are losing, the game won't last an eternity to finish. But I mean I agree, I never wish to interact with that crowd, outside of hots. Let's just say, if blizzard didn't make this game, it wouldn't be on my radar at all. I am mostly on board for the blizzard fanservice, however the game seems to be quite a lot different than the standard "moba".

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Gaming / Re: watcha playin'

« on: June 14, 2014, 02:53:56 PM »

Look what blizzard decided to give me, a heroes alpha invite. I expected one actually, since I signed up for alpha/beta invites within the very MINUTE they announced on stream that you can opt in to the beta.

I don't like mobas, but it's a pretty cool game.

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: May 27, 2014, 05:48:33 PM »

I suppose I can continue my blog post with a short update. I have a doc appointment scheduled for hormone replacement therapy purposes, coming up in 3 weeks. This does not guarantee that I will receive hormones as the doc can still block access even with a letter of recommendation from my shrink. Plus they can't give me the stuff on the first appointment, that's for the second appointment I think.

I reach this point because there can be a few outcomes. Get on hrt, succeed, live life as woman and be happy. Get on hrt, fail, detransition, live life as a man knowing that what I thought I wanted wasn't worth it in practice. Or the worst case scenario, never try to transition, get old, kill self out of depression because its too late to even try. I figure it's better to try and fail than never to try at all. I know for certain that if I repress this, it will only come back later in life and hit me harder than it did last month. With how my life is now, it's almost ideal for a transition. I don't have a wife or kid that would be fucked over, my friends and family are cool with it, my boss is cool with it...if I had a time to attempt it, it's now.

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Gaming / Re: watcha playin'

« on: May 20, 2014, 02:38:33 AM »

I highly recommend sticking it with one character, because properly gearing a character takes an INCREDIBLE amount of time, money, and mats. Like I needed over 400 marquis topaz just to fully gem my pants and chest, and if I want to deck out my wizard...im going to need another 400.

This double loot week is destroying my wrist, I can't stop playing and I am getting upgrades for once. I went from doing mediocre/poor damage on torment 1, to making torment 3 my bitch with the ability to even slowly do torment 5/6. If I get my tasker and theo gloves, I should be farming torment 5 at minimum.

http://us.battle.net/d3/en/profile/vladgd-1696/hero/3024684

The damage stat does not matter anymore, my damage looks low, and yet I shred torment 3. Theres a lot of hidden damage in my gear that does not show up, pet damage increase, physical damage increase, bonus damage to elites, my plague of toads double explosion/homing spawning fetishes like crazy. This game got a lot more fun when I got the items that allowed me to change my build for the first time in over a year, pet doctor is mad fun.

Quite the change of attitude on the game from my last post. Plus I finally got my Royal Ring of Grandeur(found ONLY in act 1 or act 4 caches), I probably upgraded more than half of my gear these past few days.

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: May 13, 2014, 07:55:27 PM »

Well...

I did see a shrink today, and I have another appointment on Monday.

Still confused? Yes, however I do feel better. I have been super stressed on being too old and not being able to pass, and she pretty much relieved me from that stress. I am more sure of myself now, but I still need more time. I know now that I am not a cis male, and I am not a fetishist, so while it doesn't narrow things down that much, it does take those two things out of the equation. Plus just the act of thinking "I could be a woman in the future" really seriously makes me feel happy...I know I am something else. But, I don't want to jump to conclusions, this will take some time.

I think after the next session she will convince me to go to this focus group thingy that has trans people from various stages of transition that could help me with some perspective.

Steps have been taken, this went from a feeling I had to a real problem I have that I am taking action to fix.

/blogpost

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Gaming / Re: watcha playin'

« on: May 07, 2014, 02:02:06 PM »

Well it's over a month later, I guess I will share my opinion on the game. As of right now the game really needs more to do, which they have confirmed for a future patch. But doing the same rifts over and over and over and getting the same crap drops over and over and over gets pretty old fast.

I pretty much only play the game in small ~1 hour bursts now, do a few rifts, don't get anything, and stop for the day.

Ohh, and I got Mario Golf World Tour, I love me some fuckin Mario Golf! Even got the season pass, I don't see this game leaving my 2DS anytime soon. Having not played much of the gamecube game, but knowing a little about it, the 3ds game looks like an evolution of that game.

People complaining about cut content and DLC really need a reality check. From what I see, the gamecube game had the most courses, with like 7-8ish courses. The 3ds game has fucking 10, the most courses out of any mario golf game, without dlc. DLC adds all 6 courses from the n64 game, putting the full course list to 16. There is a lot of content in this game, and with online, it feels pretty fully featured.

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: April 29, 2014, 12:27:57 AM »

Well I am still unsure on the whole thing, I need to contact a shrink so we can see where I fall/what to do about it.

I told a few friends and my mother, those I have told have been supportive. It's just a bizarre thing, I was depressed most of last week due to this, and the last time I got depressed like that was like high school 8 years ago for stupid teen drama shit. So, I mean I know I feel strongly about it, but, it comes down to do I really honestly want to live life as the other gender?

We'll see, because I don't know as of now. The only thing I am certain of is the fact that I have never been so confused over my identity before.  I really really want something, and I have always wanted it, but would the process of getting what I want make me happier or just complicate things for the worse?

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: April 22, 2014, 11:29:22 PM »

Happy belated birthday brah!

This will sound kinda funny, but like its looking very likely that I am a.......mtf

Life is about to get interesting.

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Random Chat / Re: You couldn't ask for a lamer topic!

« on: April 08, 2014, 06:50:01 PM »

I've been playing fairly consistently, doing rifts, and getting nothing but fucking rings and weapons.  My armor wants to be upgraded but the RNG says NO! I can't really play the game in super long sessions (maby like 2 hours) due to wrist fatigue, but I think it's for the best since you can hit up like 5-10 rifts and call it a day.

I kinda don't care about other characters till my witch doctor has some better gear, and the RNG doesn't seem to want that to happen for the time being.

Also with the new patch today, lag spikes, may play something else till they cool off.