That's a real goddamn bummer. At least you could vent about it here.
A short summary, then.
My life at home was horrible. Mom is an abusive alcoholic, dad is gone most of the time and refuses to see problems beyond me being disrespectful. Found a girl, threw myself into it wholeheartedly as a distraction to my home life. Thought I had a
relationship, turns out I didn't, got a huge run-around and drove myself crazy over it at the time. Became
extraordinarily sick, and the doctors couldn't figure out why. Became extremely
depressed. Stopped sleeping, stopped eating, convinced myself I was going to die. Had a breakdown. Bottomed out.
Contemplated suicide.Left my
work because the assistant manager was threatening me and I was continually getting fucked over, plus I wasn't making shit. New job changed my hire date so I couldn't get insurance, put me at a store an hour away, and lots of other things, so I quit. Had my
college lie to me several times about payment things, almost got screwed out of it. Teacher's mistake caused me to fail an easy class so I'm on academic probation. Need to transfer to a real college in a couple of semesters, but
money problems mean I'll have to take out a student loan and be in debt for years.
Moved in with a
friend. He's useless and tried to get me kicked out. Get a call from my old job, a
good friend died and now they have a position open. I have the position but I'm going to have to leave it because it won't pay enough and the at-work abuse will start again. Can't afford to drive from where I live now and I don't want to be here anyway, but I can't deal with the psychological abuse of living with my parents. So starting on Friday,
I'm living out of my car and couch-surfing when I can, until I can find a full-time or a second part-time that will work around my schedule as a full-time student. The convention I volunteer for and am already committed to this year is being far too demanding.
I have $12 in my wallet. I have $5 in my bank account. I have a $20/month gym payment that I
can't cancel without paying a $60 fee. I have two weeks to figure out how to get another $15 in there. I've sold hundreds of dollars of stuff online to
afford food and gas. My trunk lock is drilled out, I need an oil change and a tune-up, my check engine comes on every time I start my car for 15-20 minutes, and I'm praying to nothing in particular that my
car doesn't die. My
best friend just got back together with her ex who is absolutely horrible for her and she keeps around solely because she enjoys the abuse.
There are days when it's all I can do to pull myself out of bed. I'm on the verge of losing it regularly. I feel sick frequently. I'm on edge all of the time. Sometimes I stress so much I hallucinate.
I don't generally care to vent. I just lie to myself and pretend it doesn't exist.